For a lot of girls, being born into the fifties would be hard. For Patricia, the fourth eldest child in a family of eleven children and the eldest girl of three daughters, this usually rang true, meaning that she had very little childhood. Where there are lots of siblings there are lots of rows and feuding, and that was certainly the case in Patricia's life. She didn't have any freedom until she married in the seventies, and though this was her happiest time, taking on the role of both wife and mother, it wasn't always plain sailing. There were both money and health problems. But the real problems would come in her late forties, where her world would come tumbling down, pitching her into her deepest and darkest place yet...